I have personality disorder?

i have personality disorder and i can not full fill my thrills with out wasting my life in prison what legal alternatives can i take one of them is stealing cars and going on police chases i know i can't steal the car but the chase i can still get around but how. murder the army not too sure if i can get in and there is not a real war a big one which they will either enforce recruitment or where there will be a lot of fighting in a cold country at least since i hate hot weather.